BEHIND THE SCENE

There could be only one option left for me to do. One thing enormously profound to upheld. I think that it is beyond question that I started to make a turn of myself. I know sometimes I could be rough and sometimes to indifferent. There and then I owe something from everybody. I have a debt to pay in order to make up the loses. I had just have my prayer but the toils were left forgotten. How could I make it up for the rest of my brethren? How could I make a step with due certainty that I don't step one's pride? How I can do things without making myself responsible for the discouragement of others?

You know what it's very hard for me to comprehend the said situation above. Upon requesting many advices and counsels from different persons I was left willy-nilly about the things I didn't do but was entrusted to me as a contracted fault. Am I wrong when I do something good for God? Am I wrong when I clean the mess and all peripherals so that the beauty of the living land could be reaped? Am I wrong when I participate in the class? Am I wrong when I don't smile to green jokes (which left me in their eyes so indifferent)? I am doing the best of my capabilities in order top achieve the ends. I am making to the best of my effort to make everybody worthwhile. But all hope has gone away and I am left trodden on.

My life is like a boat sailing in the sea. I am the one who make the turns of it. Maybe this time, in this juncture of my life I experience tsunami. I felt so bereaved upon the quest of everybody. I want to ask sorry if ever I have done wrong but the doors of their hearts are very closed. They are so closed to the point that they are so blind to see and so deaf to hear.

I am writing this one as a way to pour out my feelings. I want to pooh-pooh this thing right now and I am sure I can do this by sharing it to unknown lads. Here I shall remain!